We Are All Fake…

Just recently, on my livejournal blogs, I read something bad but it never hurt me at all. Saying we are fake doesn’t mean anything to us; it doesn’t bother us that much. We are already over come those things. Who cares? If you think we are all posers then why I have to waste time on you? And for sure you will not waste time on us either. We are fake that’s what you think so if that is what you think, is not our problem anymore just don’t bother us. That is reality we have to deal with, I already explain about this matter for many times, even about our friendster account, it’s been so long since we last update our account there due to this poser issue. We feel that it was a waste of time on our part to deal with people there, many pretenders and rude people in friendster added in our account. They insulted us, judging us, saying bad words to us which is really too much. I think leaving friendster is the right decision since our total being has been crashed there. We feel torn apart in a little pieces, we don’t deserved those insult giving to us, How come you judge us when you really don’t know who really we are…we don’t have time for this, because we are busy, we are celebrity etc…etc…I don’t think it is reasonable enough for you to judge us, don’t we have right to use this thing and be on the net??? Sounds so stupid and yet funny! You even think we don’t have much time for our family so why we have time on this thing? How sure you are to say that when you don’t know about our life and family? We spend our time with them as long we have all the chances and we never forget them even we are working so hard. Now, I just laughing at you…just go on…say anything you want to say, it will never lose our faith in our heart because we know who really we are and we will show what really we are… 

Keep The Faith!

I don’t know why it always comes out in my mouth; I have strong faith in my heart and I want to share my faith to people…When I feel down sometimes I lose hope and faith…Sometimes I have too many burdens in my heart that I feel I can’t go on…but thinking it was just a test for me that I need to face it rather than to give up. For me, faith is my answer to all my confusion, if you have faith in your heart then you have trust, trust yourself, have faith in yourself and you will make the impossible things happen…

No Worries People…

Many fans and people messaging me that they are worried we might get sick because of that virus. Actually, we are very careful even sometimes we can avoid to get sick and not to feel well. Right now, junsu is injured and jaejoong is not feeling well but he still can manage to work. I don’t want to get sick because when I am sick, I feel I’m going to die sounds so funny but I’m really scared to get sick because I feel I am incomplete when I can’t perform very well. Of course when we are sick, we can’t perform that well but we still giving our best we could. Now, I feel my heart is touched to those concerns and sweetness you show to us, we will assure you that we will take care ourselves, if ever we get sick or what, don’t worry too much because the show must go on…we will perform for all of you on and on…

 

Nice To Get Back Again…

Every time we come back after a busy day to work, it feels great to be home again…we travel a lot and it’s hard for us to find time to our family. We have limited time for them and we have to deal with it. Well, is not only my family I miss most even my soft bed, every time I lay down there I feel I’m in heaven…I can easily fall asleep when I am laying on my bed because of the softness and I feel comfortable. I have this pink big teddy bear I used to hold when I sleep, given by my loving brother. Right now, I feel relax but still my mind thinking many things…weird things that keeps on playing in my mind…soon I will find out what it is bothers me so much, but now I just can’t figure it out…

Just A Thought…

It’s already past 3:00 am of May 7, Thursday and we are preparing for the next stop on our secret code concert. I fell sleep a while ago, then I woke up and never go back to sleep again. I turn on my laptop and browse the net, check out those fan site and website I often like to visit. Suddenly, I feel something is missing...I don’t know why I have to feel this way, I supposed to be happy for the success we earned but I realized not all the things in this world can make you happy, only your heart will know if you are happy or not. Sometimes, my mind says I am happy, but then my heart refused. Maybe I am longing for something that I want to have it; still I haven’t found what I am looking for…

 

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I AM A STAR THAT FALL…

I am a star sparkling at the sky

I am a star fall from the sky

To shower love

To give love

To share love. . .

A star that fall

It’s me can make you fall

You thought I can fall

But you see to you I fall…

A star is hard to reach

You think I am out of reach

But here I am falling

To you I am really falling

I am a star you dream of

But it’s you I wish of

How can we find each other?

We are far from each other

I make wishes for you

Someday I can be with you

One day you will find me

And you can be with me

You make me fall for you

Now all I need is you…

YUNHO I KNOW! (U-KNOW I KNOW)

This entry is dedicated to Yunho (Jung (Chung) Yunho) , the leader of Dong Bang Shin Ki. How do you know him? As far as I know, being together for almost five years, he has a character that shines unexpectedly. Probably is hard for you to figure it out what character he really has, does he cry in spite of his manly image he project? Does he break down in spite of his strength and strong personality that reflects every time you see him? Does he cry? I will tell you what I know about Yunho (U-know)…

 

As a leader himself, he never been a lazy one but he can easily get jealous. When he got jealous, he acts like a baby to catch attention. He never commands us or anyone but once he speaks, in show respect to him as a leader of the group we listen to every word his say. He likes changing opinions and thoughts with the group. He gave his own criticisms and advice regarding in our work. All in all he’s a great leader that take care of his group and make it sure that we stick together no matter what. As a performer, he gives his full energy to perform very well and do his best on stage. When it comes to his attitude “off the camera” he is naturally hyper, very energetic and serious. When he performs it shows how hyper he is and gives his best performance. Due to his strong energy, mostly he get hurt and injured. Since he was a kid, he got many accidents in his life and he’s getting used with it. Just recently, he slip on the stage and got his back injured but manage to perform as if nothing happen. That’s how strong he is, he never get tired easily but he’s mood can change in an instant. It’s hard to please him and once he’s in bad mood, he just quiet and never talk to anyone. We just let his bad mood gone before we are able to talk to him again or we just wait for him to speak first before we speak to him. This is the only few things I can share to you about him, but there is many things to discover in his personality. For now, many people and fans keep on thinking does he fall in love? Well, you see him often times smiling and most of the time his face is in “serious mode” but even he his hard to please and giving you a serious look, he has so much love to give just like me and once he’s in love, he always have a “big smile” on his face. His big smile means a lot; it shows how happy he was being in love to someone that changes his life in an instant…could it be that someone is you? Who knows? Maybe U-Know knows, I’m just telling you, what I know about U-Know, I know…

Bleeding Heart...

“The purpose of the heart is not only to love but to understand. When its hurt, it bleeds, when is bleeding it cries…”

 

Once I have you in my life

You become my girl

You become my world

You become my every thing

 

I feel complete with you

You bring out the best in me

You show me the real meaning of life

I love you without any doubts

 

Everything was fine

We are happy being together

Sharing our love together

Loving you feel so good

 

But it was a part of my past

It was just only a memory

I left with a broken heart

I feel I’m going to die

 

My heart crying in pain

And it’s bleeding so badly

How could you leave me?

In spite of what I have done

 

I did every thing to make you happy

Surrender my body and soul

I lose my pride because of you

But you make my heart bleed

 

Now what I have is my dying heart

Never stop bleeding so bad

You said goodbye

You make me cry

 

How can I go on without you?

How can I make it having misery?

I don’t know how to start

I don’t know how to move on

 

It’s hard without you

Someday, I know I can get over you

I wish the pain will stop

So I can save my bleeding heart…

I Will Never Stop Falling Inlove...

Love is not a crime that once you’re in love you’re guilty of it. Being in love with someone you know out of reach is not a sin. Ordinary people don’t have the right to fall for someone that is not same life as them, that’s on people’s head. Status in life is not a basis to be in love and not to be in love. In my life, it’s hard for me to fall once I did, it always be complicated. I got complicated life, so I got complicated love life. When would be my fate will change that I can live normal loving a person without any pressures around me, when would be my chance come that I can show my love freely. I don’t know if that will happen but one thing for sure I will never stop falling in love because is one thing I can’t give up…

I Love You, Goodbye...

Here we are, standing close to each other

You look in my eye and I took your hand

I’m sorry I can’t stay; I’m not the one you need

I can’t give the love you wanted

Loving you is wrong

I love you and you know I do

I have to set you free

This is the only way I know

You deserved to be happy not with me

You love him more than to me

Someone is waiting for you

Truly loves you more than I do

I wish to stay but that will be a lie

Your heart belong not to mine

Remember the words I say

In my heart you will stay

My love will remain as long my heart beats

I will never stop loving you as long as I live

Time for me to go, so I let go of you…

I’m sorry but I have to go…I love you Goodbye...

A STAR CAN FALL

There was a girl dreaming the boy she loves

Longing for him everyday hoping to look on her way

Wishing that someday a boy he loves will notice her

And will love her the way she always dream

At night the girl keep on praying

For the boy she loves to come on her way

That the boy will give her a chance to show her love

He’s everything that she need in her life

For a long time, all that she ask from above

Is to have the boy of her dreams

To love her and be with her

She keeps on asking her self

“Does he know I exist?”

“If there’s a chance he will notice me?”

Suddenly she began to feel sad

How come the boy of her dreams will love her?

He’s a star and she’s just a fan

Holding her dreams in her heart

She keeps on hoping that someday her dream will come true

Just one look from a boy and a smile

It’s enough for her to love him more

She was there cheering up for the boy he love

Screaming his name and saying the words of love

At the end of the day, she goes home with a little hope in her heart

All she can do is to look the face of the boy she dream of

She looks at the sky and asks “Do star fall?”

Then she saw a falling star and made a wish…

Another lonely night has passed

Her hope started to fade, she almost gave up

But thinking the boy he dream make her heart to hope more

Her love getting strong that she can’t get enough of him

All she can do is to watch him from a distance

She was there staring at him wondering what he’s thinking

Standing far from the boy she loves, by chance he looks her way

Suddenly, her heart start to beat so fast

That she couldn’t catch her breath

There’s a boy she loves looking at her

The day is done and she’s heading on her way home

She has a big smile on her face, good thing happen today

The boy she dream looks in her way

Give her a smile that she will never forget

By chance, a car stops on her way

There he was, the boy she love open the window

“I think this belongs to you…” the boy said

She was speechless hearing his voice

“I saw it fell from your pocket when you try to get your hankie…”

She was blushing; it was her poems that she made for him

“That is beautiful…” he smile before he said goodbye

Poor, she didn’t have a chance to speak and she left speechless

She start to read her poems again and she saw his autograph written on it

She almost collapses when she read the message he wrote at the end of her poems…

 

I hold my dreams in my heart

Because it’s only you in my heart

I will take all the chances I have

To show you all my love I have

Sometimes I lose hope

For me there is no hope

How could you love me?

You don’t even know me

But my love for you is strong

I keep on holding on for the feeling so strong

I don’t know if a star fall

But it’s only you who make me fall

I don’t care if you’re a star, I will still love you in a special way

It’s you I always think of every day

I have no other wish except to be with you one day

And I know my wish will come true someday…

 

“From the start I look at you, I knew it was you, in your eyes there is love, I feel it by my heart, the moment I saw you, I can’t stop thinking of you, and I want to take a chance to love you just like the way you dream of…now I finally know you, met you by chance, when we see each other again, I show you what I say is true, I ill be everything you need like you always wish and make you believe that a star can fall…”

 

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